- Lady Gaga spoke about being raped at 19 years old in Apple TV+'s "The Me You Can't See."
- She said the man who raped her kept her "locked away" in a studio for months and impregnated her.
- Gaga said he dropped her off on a corner by her parents' home when she was pregnant and "vomiting."
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Lady Gaga said she was impregnated by a music producer that raped her when she was 19 years old.
The "Rain On Me" singer, now 35, detailed the abuse in Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey's Apple TV+'s docuseries "The Me You Can't See," released Thursday.
After Gaga, whose real name is Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta, went to the hospital to seek treatment for physical pain years after being raped, she said the recurring sensation of intense pain turning into numbness felt familiar.
"I realized that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner by my parents' house because I was vomiting and sick 'cause I'd been being abused," she said, adding, "I was locked away in a studio for months."
Gaga, who also said the producer threatened to "burn" her music if she didn't take off her clothes, stated that she doesn't plan on publicly identifying him. "I do not ever want to face that person again," she explained.
Gaga recalled having a "total psychotic break" after she was raped. "For a couple years, I was not the same girl," she said.
The pain persisted, however. In recent years, Gaga has been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder, which she says she developed as a result of being raped, and fibromyalgia, a condition that causes pain all over the body, per the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.
"The way that I feel when I feel pain is how I felt after I was raped. I've had so many MRIs and scans. They don't find nothing, but your body remembers. I couldn't feel anything. I disassociated. It's like your brain goes offline. You don't know why no one else is panicking but you are in an ultra state of paranoia," she said in "The Me You Can't See."
Gaga went on to describe the process of healing her mental health as a "slow rise," explaining that she can make steady progress for months before "getting triggered" and automatically feeling bad again.
It took her two-and-a-half years to learn methods — like therapy, taking care of her body, or playing music — that successfully pull herself out of the bad spells, the artist said.
"It all started to slowly change," she added.
Gaga first revealed that she was raped by a producer 20 years her senior during a 2014 interview with Howard Stern, telling the host that it inspired her 2013 track "Swine."
The artist didn't tell anyone for years, explaining that she didn't want to be "defined by it."
"I'll be damned if somebody's going to say that every creatively intelligent thing that I ever did is all boiled down to one d---head that did that to me. I'm going to take responsibility for all my pain looking beautiful," Gaga said, adding, "I did that."
At the time, Gaga said she didn't have any desire to identify or confront the producer. After seeing him in a store on one occasion, she said she felt "paralyzed by fear."
"It wasn't until I was a little bit older that I went, 'Wow, that was really messed up,'" the "Chromatica" singer told Stern.
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